Author: Grace (page 13 of 13)

The Ninth House Of Shruikana

A narrative I wrote for my English class. 

The night was ominous and cold. Black clouds gathered across the flat expanse of sky, smothering the moonlight and extinguishing the stars. But despite the vast and crushing darkness that surrounded her, the girl’s eyes could be seen gleaming in the shadows, as grey and disturbed as an overcast sky.

Her name was Melinda Alistair, and she was the youngest Mind-Dancer of the past one thousand years. Her art was a rare and subtle one, and she practiced it in the shadowed world behind the glass of mirror in her bedroom. Before her entrance into this Mirrorworld, this cold and beautiful realm of nighttime and intrigue, she had been nothing more than a prisoner in suburbia: an over-bright world of biting sunlight and rebellious teens. Every day of her life, until the Dark Nobility tracked her down and saw that she was properly trained, random snippets of other people’s thoughts had echoed in her head. For twelve years she had been forced to share the jealousy, grief, fear, confusion, celebration, joy, anxiety, bitterness, and pain of every single human being within a mile’s radius of wherever she stood. It was almost enough to drive her mad: the ignorance of the human race was near unbearable for her.

Melinda had dealt with the agony of it alone until the evening of her thirteenth birthday. On that tempestuous night, as rain lashed against Melinda’s windows and lightning sundered the sky, an agent of the Dark Nobility came to her in a dream, and Melinda finally learned the truth. She stilled remembered with a thrill of pleasure the feeling of elation she had experienced as the cold glass of the mirror had melted like ice beneath her fingertips: forming a darkly illuminated doorway. The Dark Nobility offered her the security, protection, and sense of belonging that she had lacked in her former life, and so in the years following that fateful night, Melinda became a formal member of the Mirrorworld’s shadowed hierarchy. In truth, she was nothing more than a useful, but disposable pawn. And yet they accepted her at least in part, and it was more than she could ever have hoped for. If her talents could have gained her full access into their ranks, she would gladly have done anything they asked.

And now, it was as a result of this blind faith that Melinda Alistair found herself bare-shouldered and shivering, standing at the gates of the Mirrorworld’s most horrific torture chambers at the age of fifteen. She did know why the Dark Nobility had appointed the scouting of Shruikana to her, but for their acceptance, she was willing to do anything. Despite her youth and relative inexperience, Melinda knew that she was more than capable of entering the torture chamber that they called the Ninth House.

She took a deep breath and stepped inside.

The cold washed over her like filthy water: the unholy smells of iron and death mingling in the dark air. Her mind was instantly almost overcome by an onslaught of sickening terror and sadistic delight. Gasping for breath, she wound both hands into her hair, twisting it tightly with her fingers and fighting to stay upright. Broken glass sliced the bottoms of her bare feet. Suppressing a whimper, she threw up barriers around her mind, and concentrated on the warm trickling of blood.

Her feet seemed to move of their own accord as she drifted invisibly through the corridors. She paused once as she slipped unseen through the halls, in a room where a young man, hardly more than a boy, had been chained to a chair. A Guardian had him by his jet-black hair, baring his throat for the long, curved knife that was pressed against it. Dark blood tricked from his nose and stained his porcelain skin, which gleamed like a bone in the darkness, and his eyes were the piercing blue of ice. Melinda moved her gaze impassively away, and left him with the knife against his throat. His tortured screams followed her, but she walked on, unperturbed by such displays of human suffering.

Melinda Alistair was neither a cruel nor a kind person. She took no joy in the pain of others, but she was entirely devoid of compassion, and no one had ever bothered to teach it to her. Melinda had never felt even the slightest tug of love or emotional obligation to another living creature in her life. There was no tenderness in her steely nature. Leaving innocents to die in Shruikana did not delight her, but it did not unsettle her either. She was indifferent to their agony.

The next room was long, and full of still more prisoners. Melinda tasted the air, and found nothing but the presence of broken minds. She glanced around and saw that almost all of them were still young—the smallest was a girl no older than six, her throat slashed wide open. Her dead, empty eyes stared into oblivion.

And then she saw him: a weak, trembling body on a bloodstained cot.

She never could explain how he had caught her eye in that dark, gruesome room. Melinda Alistair did not believe in fate, and yet something inexplicable drew her gaze to where he lay, flat on his back, shivering violently. As she stared, he sat slowly upright, shaking. His hands grabbed compulsively at his filthy hair, and his face was ravaged where he appeared to have clawed at it with his own fingernails.

Melinda gave a hastily stifled gasp—she had never encountered this brother of a comrade before, but she had seen his picture on the missing posters far too many times to soon forget the face.

The once-bright eyes were blank and unfocused, there were deep, raw knife-slashes across his chest and shoulders, and the torn remains of his dirty white shirt hung loosely on his emaciated frame. Even from a distance, Melinda could easily count every single one of his ribs. But the resemblance to his sister was unmistakable. Before Melinda could stop herself, his name slipped through her shocked lips.

Mark…?

He didn’t even blink at the sound of his name, but she was certain. She approached slowly, cautiously. Warnings were screaming in her ears—that this could be an ambush, a trap—but her instincts urged her onward. And as she neared the bed, it became evident that Mark Andrews posed no threat.

Without stopping to think, Melinda lowered her defenses and allowed herself to become visible once more. Mark’s breathing was panicked, and when he held up his hands in some desperate defense, Melinda saw that some sort of blade had been use to slice deep, thin cuts into the undersides of his arms. Unaware of what she was doing, she reached tentatively towards him, and he cringed away from her touch.

“Don’t be afraid,” she whispered. But her words had no effect—his fear was beyond all reasoning.

In his terror, he was digging his fingernails compulsively into his skin again; leaving bloody gouges in his face. Without thinking, Melinda grabbed his hands before he could flinch away: hoping to prevent any further harm. As soon as she touched him, she was overcome by an excruciating sensation: a thousand knifes slashing against her consciousness and tearing at her mind. Melinda could feel herself slipping away into a roar of crimson pain: the cold, metallic taste of insanity seeping into her consciousness.  In desperation, she grappled for any solid thought or emotion to hold on to, but all she found was panic, confusion, and terror. It was pure human pain, raw and undiluted, and it was making her sick.

Just seconds before it was too late, Melinda’s body lurched involuntarily backwards, letting go of his hands. The pain evaporated from her mind instantly, leaving only wisps of misery behind. Released from her grip, Mark shrank back, breathing fast, and wrapped his arms protectively around himself. He was shivering, and tear-tracks were etched into his bloodstained face. Melinda realized that she had dropped to her knees on the stone floor. Her hands were shaking violently: in the first twelve years of her life, before she learned how to close her mind, Melinda truly believed she had experienced every degree of human suffering. But what she had just experienced left them all far, far behind.

She glanced at Mark, worried that the ordeal might have frightened him still further—but then she realized that no assault against his consciousness could possibly do more damage than what had already been done. She had never experienced such agony in all of her life, and hard though her heart was towards the human race, Melinda felt a certain degree of pity, of sympathy, stirring inside of her at the sight the broken teenager with the bloodstained face. Somehow, they had destroyed him beyond anything she had ever seen before.

Mark Andrews’ mind had been completely unhinged.

Chasing Starlight

 “I’m fifteen for a moment, caught in between ten and twenty,
And I’m just dreaming, counting the ways to where you are.”

We were fifteen, and summer was coming to an end. As I lay on my back in the cool, damp grass, my cold fingertips intertwined with her warm ones, I could feel the bite of autumn in the midnight air. The stars gleamed above like so many diamond facets, dazzling in the cold, enigmatic darkness. Not a word passed between us, and for the first time I had a glimpse of the melancholy truth: that we were already worlds away from one another in our minds, our distance and silence bridged only by the light touching of our hands.

The summer faded before our eyes that night, whispering away like leaves in the autumn wind, and an irrepressible remoteness could already be felt growing between the girl I was lying beside and I, as vast and overwhelming as the darkness that surrounded us. Prospects of a new year loomed before us, with me preparing to reenter my competitive, isolated world, and her preparing to say goodbye. Our friendship was the fragile, restless ghost that time and circumstance had made of it, and still I was leaving her again. But echoes of the past still reached me that night, in the form of a thousand forgotten shadows: memories that returned to me at the soft hesitance of her touch.

I was lost in a haze of nostalgia when it came suddenly, without warning, and was gone within an instant: a silver chip of starlight streaking across the sky. My eyes widened, drawn the to cold, ethereal beauty of it, and beside me I heard a soft intake of breath. For the briefest instant, her grip on my hand tightened. And then the falling star was gone again, lost to the impenetrable darkness. It may never have even occurred at all.

But in those elusive few seconds, in the tightening of her grip, her hushed exclamation of delight, the silver streak of radiance that sundered the midnight sky, I swear I knew all of the beauty and evanescence in the world. And in that most fleeting of moments, when I felt the pressure of her hand against mine, when I felt the exhilaration of the girl lying beside me, so beautiful, so irrepressible, so alive, I was only half-aware of the fact that my eyes were racing across the darkness—chasing starlight, chasing shadows, chasing dreams.

To Sweet Beginnings, And Bitter Endings

These past three years, I have been lucky enough to be a participant in an amazing theatre program called Five Star. This was my final summer at Five Star, as I am now fifteen. Today, during our last day together, all of the “graduating” participants gave speeches describing their experiences. This rambling, emotional mess was mine. I wrote it in the middle of the night, and it isn’t exactly a masterpiece, but I think I conveyed my emotions as well as I could. 

Five Star = Family. 

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I guess I should start by saying that I honestly didn’t think that this day would ever come. Even now, I want so badly believe that it isn’t quite over yet. How can it be? What happened to the scared, uncertain, insecure little girl I used to be, the one who stepped through the high school doors three years ago, and into one of the most wonderful experiences of her life? How could the time pass so quickly, within the blink of an eye, when I remember that first morning as clearly as though it were yesterday?

I can safely say that these past three summers were the best I have ever had. To perform in a show requires confidence, fearlessness, enthusiasm, and trust. There are no words for the electrifying experience of opening night, or that one final moment of raw energy and excitement before the curtains part and you step forward beneath stage lights.

To agree to be a part of the Five Star theatre program is to agree to spend long hours in the auditorium, longer hours in the rooms without air conditioning, and to handle the pressure and intensity of the audition, callback, and performance without complaint. But it is something else as well. To join Five Star is to open yourself to that rich, emotional, and unforgettable display of unbridled freedom, self-expression, and joy that can only be found in one place in the world: the theatre.

*****

These three summers have left me with a lot of people to thank.

My first shout-out goes to the remarkable Julia Popken. Without you I would never have taken any interest in theatre. When you invited me to the RMHS performance of Me And My Girl, I tagged along hoping it wouldn’t be too boring. As it happened, that night was some sort of turning point for me. After showing up at Me And My Girl twice more in that week, I proceeded to attend every single RMHS play that was put on in the next two years. Theatre became an incredibly important part of my life— I remember staying home when my family went on vacation to New York, because I had heard that the drama club was putting on Chess that weekend, and I was determined to see it not once, but every single night. Julia, it seems like so long ago that you first encouraged me to start Five Star, and then guided and supported me all the way throughout my first summer here. Now we are almost in our sophomore year of high school, and you are a part of that same drama club we used to watch so faithfully together. I go to those shows alone now to watch you perform. And I want to thank you for helping me recognize a dream, and encouraging me to pursue it. If it hadn’t been for you, I might have missed out on everything.

My second shout out goes to Samantha Gibbs. I had an amazing time with you these last two summers. You are as remarkably genuine and loving as you are confident and hilarious, and I enjoyed every moment we spent together. I watched you grow more and more independent this summer, and I knew you were going to be just fine without me. Sammie, you were the little sister I always wanted, the sweetest and most entertaining sidekick I could ever have asked for. I love you, sweetie, and I’m sorry that I won’t be here to carry your bag around for you next summer.

My third shout out goes Mr. Endslow, Ms. Killian, Ms. Stone, and all of the counselors and staff. If I could say any one thing to you all, it would be this: never underestimate the power of what you do. The talent, energy, and passion you display provides the inspiration for everybody in this program. Your enthusiasm does not go unappreciated. The kids at Five Star view you all as role models, authority figures, and friends, and the impact you have is enormous. Never forget that, because you mean a lot to all of us.

My final shout out goes out to every single fifteen year old in this auditorium. I have loved every year spent in this incredible program with all of you. We grew up together, spent our summers together, and performed together. I don’t think any of us truly expected it to end. But I guess we should always have known that it wouldn’t last, because it was beautiful, and beautiful things never do. So now I guess another chapter of our lives ends here, on this stage in front of the people we love the most. Words can’t express just how much I am going to miss all of you next year.

*****

These last three summers have been extraordinary for me. I am not that frightened little girl anymore, struggling to memorize dance moves and make friends in a new place. I have grown and changed and learned, as everybody does. I am almost sixteen years old now: pushing through high school, working on the weekends, and learning how to drive. But whenever I hear those special Five Star warm-up songs, no matter where I am or what I’m doing, the joy of summertime comes back to me, and I am thirteen again. Regardless of what my future may hold, Five Star will always be a part of me. It will always be a part of all of us.

Thank you all for the best three summers of my life.

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dearly beloved

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#2 pencil. january, 2012. (sketch).

Love And Acknowledgement: Scottie Tully

It is going to be really hard for me to write this.

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Well, it’s 1:15 in the morning, and you just turned eighteen.

I can hear you snoring in the room across from me, but I sit wide-awake. Your birthday has certainly given me quite a lot to think about. Turning eighteen has a very special significance in everyone’s life. It’s interesting, it’s eventful, it’s exciting, and it’s more than a little intimidating… or so I would assume.

Eighteen years old means becoming a person: someone of importance, and no longer ‘just a kid’. Being eighteen means being able to vote— Obama 2012! — and as you pointed out tonight, it means that you will no longer be able to murder somebody and be charged as a minor.

But to me, your turning eighteen means so much more than that.

In the almost sixteen years that I have experienced so far, a day has never passed when you were not a central part of my life.

I was there the first time dad showed you how to hit a baseball—when you dropped the bat and chose to pursue a butterfly that was flitting across the yard instead. I was there sleeping side by side in the same twin bed with you, struggling to stay up late into the night to talk incessantly about Harry Potter together. I was there, helping you color our basement carpet with chalk, and witnessed Mom’s reaction when she found us kneeling on the floor, our hands stained with the pink and blue evidence of our guilt. I was there the first time you drove a car, when you seemed intent upon stomping upon the accelerator and the brake alternatively, and nearly giving Sheila a heart attack in the process.

From my earliest childhood, you were my closest companion, my partner in crime, my role model, and my best friend. It has never been easy for me to express just how deeply my love and admiration for you has always run.

There were times just a few years ago, when our interests began to differ and we both hit our teenage years with a vengeance, when living in our house together was similar to living in a warzone.  But here we still stand, one of us a legal adult, and I love you every bit as much as I did when we were five and seven years old.

From the very beginning I was your shadow: modeling everything I did after you.  I admired your intelligence, your natural leadership, your athleticism, your maturity, your composure, and your uncensored— yet unmatched—sense of humor. But most of all, I have always admired the relentlessness, consistency, and dedication with which you pursue your passions.

You were cut from your travel baseball team at just ten years old, and even then, I was taken aback by the incredible maturity and perseverance with which you overcame the situation. I saw the hours you spent outside, throwing a ball against the pitch-back until you were athletically unmatched, and then watched as you started on the varsity baseball team your freshman year of high school. I saw you break records and win games, and looked on with a bizarre combination of irritation and pride as the art and writing awards of mine, which were hanging up on the wall, were slowly but steadily overrun by the various newspaper articles and photos featuring your athletic ability and eventual acceptance into Notre Dame.

And I must admit, I still get that painful lurch of anxiety in my stomach when someone mentions you going away to college. It’s hard to imagine life without you, it really is.

But today isn’t a day for uncertainties and goodbyes. Today is a day of celebration and triumph.

So congratulations Scottie, for eighteen years of being one of the most remarkable people I know. You taught me more than I could possibly say about passion, dedication, and standing up for what you believe in.

You are the best big brother I could ever have asked for.

Happy birthday, and I love you so much!

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 There are no curses, only mirrors held up to the souls of gods and mortals.

Rita Dove, Demeter’s Prayer to Hades

I am a writer, student, and activist from Boston, Massachusetts. I obtained my Bachelor of Arts in English Language and Literature at the University of Oxford in 2018, and currently work as an immigration legal assistant in Burlington, Massachusetts.  When I have the time, I try to write.

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